I love benchmarks like this though. They serve as great reminders to stop, pause, reflect and do a self checkup.
How am I doing? Am I living with purpose and intention? Am I making the most of this year? Am I following through on some of those goals I set in January? How have my goals changed in the last few months? Do I need to redirect myself in some ways? Am I being true to my calling? My destiny? My purpose? Am I keeping the main thing the main thing?
I'm really just writing from the heart here because I need to hear all of this myself.
In case you didn't notice, I took the past week off from writing. I was in Texas with my adopted grandfather, "Pops." He was moved from the hospital (after spending 3+ weeks there) into hospice. He battled Parkinson's for almost 20 years until just a few days ago when he went Home. I got to be there during his final week on earth and felt like I got to help usher him into eternity. It was bittersweet to be sure.
I feel stretched emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally. I feel pulled in different directions, but at the same time very grounded. I find it's when things seem really out of control (like when we have 100 things going on between work, family, friends, self care….) that it's almost easier to admit we have no control. It's easier to surrender and say, "Jesus, take the wheel cause I can't do this thing." We know we are in over our heads and can't get through it without relying on the supernatural strength only God provides.
We get in trouble when we think we have things under control. "I got it going on….I'm rocking this….I am holding everything in balance…." We get a little too big for our britches and start relying on self-strength versus supernatural strength from Above. Of course I like to feel this way. I love to feel powerful, in control and the commander of my destiny. But we all know, when it comes down to it, we have little control over Life. The only thing we can always control is our attitude to what happens.
Although I don't like to feel stretched and pulled in different directions, in a weird way it's so good when I am stretched because I realize how weak I am, but how strong God is in me.
Please don't live life mindlessly floating from day to day.
Be purposeful. Be intentional. Live OUTloud!